I'm The Real Slim Shady

They exchanged the truth of God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator—who is forever praised. Amen. Romans 1:25

This Bible verse has been rolling around in my head lately. Finally, it wanted to come out. Why must ideas always wait til 2:00 am to get restless?
Anyway, this diddy is called - Me, (B.C.) :

I traded the truth of our God for a lie
Spent so much of that time just inflating my pride
And oft God would whisper (like an off-stage aside):
"It's not about that. That's not why I died."

Still...
For years God He chased me, He ran alongside
But I wasted time foolishly, self-occupied
My heart closed to Him, as well as my eyes
Ignoring the God-shaped hole deep inside

An insincere smile, sweet but fake saccharide
I tried to play happy, stayed unsatisfied
My moods they fluxed quickly, like Jekyll and Hyde
All sides of my aspect just doomed to collide

In massive implosion both Ego and Self died
(Or perhaps in despair, their joint suicide?)
"God help us please!" their last cry, unified
Then I became His, Abba, Adonai